Earrings, earrings, earrings.
No matter what I do, I canât stop thinking about earrings.
Today I came to see a movie with Maika and Asakura-san, but all I could see was my ears on the screen.
November has passed and we are already in December.
I think I need to pick out her earrings as soon as possible.
No matter how much I wonder and think about it, it wonât change who I am. Thereâs no way I can choose the earrings that Sendai-san thinks are good, so I keep thinking about it, wondering if I should just give up and choose them as soon as possible.
I think it would be easier to pick out a collar and give it to her.
A beautiful red collar.
It could also be black.
It would surely suit Sendai-san well.
Although she might be angry with me for being an idiot.
ãShiori, are you coming by here?ã
I hear Maikaâs voice and realize I had stopped in my tracks. My eyes look to a store that sells imported goods and I touch my ear.
I remember the store where Sendai-san bought these earrings was like this.
This store is in a station building with a movie theater, so it is different from the store where Sendai-san bought my earrings. But the atmosphere is very similar.
ãCan I come by?ã
I call out to Maika and Asakura-san, and they both reply,ãYes,ãand we go inside. On a reasonably crowded Sunday afternoon, we pass by the stuffed animals and knick-knacks, look at the bags, and arrive at the earrings. There are a lot of earrings lined up like in the store I went to with Sendai-san, but I donât know which ones would suit her best.
ãShiori, are buying an earring?ã
Maika says, looking at the earrings next to her.
ãI donât know if Iâll buy it, but I was wondering if they have anything beautiful.ã
ãNot cute, but beautiful?ã
ãIâm fine with cute, butâ¦ã
I am not particular about the design of the earrings.
Cute ones are fine. But I think something beautiful would suit Sendai-san better than something cute.
ãNhnâã
As I groaned and looked at the rows of earrings, Maika said,ãThese are cute,ãand pointed to a pair of earrings in the shape of a four-leaf clover.
ãIt really is.ã
The words that come out of my mouth do not lie.
The earrings Maika pointed to are indeed cute.
However, they are not the image of Sendai-san.
It reminds me of a necklace I gave her in high school.
I had given that necklace to Sendai-san because I thought it would look good on her, but it was something that would be hidden and I didnât really care that much whether it actually looked good on her.
I pick up one of the many earrings in the row and look at it.
The earrings are the ones that control Sendai-san and are visible to everyone.
It is different from the necklaces of those days.
Therefore, I want to choose something that will not detract from Sendai-san. Even if she wears the earrings I gave her, she must be the same Sendai-san she always was.
ãI like these earrings. Theyâre cute.ã
Asakura-san says sincerely.
I put down the earrings in my hand and asked her, who wasnât wearing anything in her ears,ãDonât you wear earrings, Asakura-san?ã
ãI think itâs nice, but Iâm afraid Iâll catch it somewhere and rip my ear off.ã
ãWhen you say it like that, youâre really afraid itâs going to rip.ã
Maika chuckled as she lightly tapped Asakura-sanâs arm after she mentioned something that seemed likely.
ãShiori, you mustâve been pretty scared, arenât you?ã
ãI donât want it to hurt.ã
ãThatâs true, but they donât rip that easily.ã
ãIt might rip it, you know?ã
Asakura-san says in a rather serious voice, and Maika laughs,ãItâs fine, isnât it?ãWe walk away, talking nonsense about whether or not our ears will rip.
ãShiori, did you not have to buy those earrings?ã
ãItâs fine. I didnât see anything I liked.ã
I couldnât find any earrings that would suit Sendai-san, and even if I could, I wouldnât want to buy them in front of Maika and Asakura-san.
ãAh, yeah. I wanted to ask you both something. Itâs Christmas Eve, the 24th, do you have plans?ã
At the sound of Maikaâs happy voice, I reply,ãNo, butâ¦ã
ãI have my part-time job.ã
ãAsakura-san, you work part-time for Christmas, too?ã
ãThereâs nothing in particular I want to do, so I thought Iâd get a part-time job.ã
To Maika, Asakura-san replies as a matter of course.
ãI see. Me and Shiori were supposed to exchange gifts for Christmas.ã
When she looked at me and nodded, Maika continued to speak.
ãThen I thought it would be a good idea if we all got together at my house and did something. I should have said something earlier.ã
ãInvite me next year. I might be working part-time this time.ã
Asakura-san laughs âahaha.â
ãEh, Iâll ask you early next year.ã
Maika answered cheerfully and looked at me,ãShiori.ã
ãDo you know what Sendai-sanâs plans are?ã
ãEh?ã
A name comes up that I wasnât expecting and I canât help but ask back.
ãI was going to invite Sendai-san, but she has plans for Christmas. I guess I should have told you earlier.ã
Sendai-sanâs Christmas plans.
I had never thought of such a thing.
I never cared about my own plans, or anyone elseâs, because Christmas was for no one, and it wasnât fun. So I never expected Maika to ask me to get together for Christmas.
But it is normal for people in the world to get together and have fun at Christmas. Thinking about it, it is not surprising that Sendai-san has plans to go out with her friends. No, it would seem strange if she had no plans.
The words Asakura-san said earlier come to mind.
Her part-time job.
Sendai-san said she wanted to get more part-time work during winter break, so she might have a part-time job for Christmas even if she doesnât have plans to hang out with friends.
ãWell, but Iâll contact her just in case. She might not have any plans.ã
Christmas is nothing special for me, but I would hate it if Sendai-san had plans. But if she didnât have plans, the three of us would meet.
I enjoy meeting with Maika.
I think we will have a good time at Christmas too.
Even though I think so, it is not fun for Sendai-san to meet Maika on Christmas.
ãIâll ask Sendai-san when I get home.ã
I canât say that I donât want Sendai-san to contact her.
I donât know how she will spend Christmas, but I want to be the first to know what her plans are.
ãThen, please.ã
ãOkay.ã
I answer shortly, and then I hear Asakura-sanâs voice.
ãMiyagi-san lives with Sendai-san, right?ã
ãYes, butâ¦ã
ãAs I said before, the two of us are completely different types of people and donât seem to have any contact with each other, so itâs strange. I might get nervous if I see her again.ã
As she said she had told me before, she told me something similar after the school festival. I donât think she was kidding when she said she would be nervous if they met, but Maika quickly dismisses that.
ãI thought she was from a distant world when we were in high school, but after talking to her properly, it wasnât like that, and I think sheâll enjoy meeting you. Right, Shiori?ã
ãYeah, well, sheâs kind.ã
ãSheâs kind?ã
Asakura-san looks at me.
ãI was taught to study in high school by her.ã
ãIâm not surprised she was teaching you how to study.ã
Asakura says so and continues,ãIâm hungry.ã
ãWhat are Miyagi-san and Utsunomiya-san going to do now? Why donât we have meal and go home?ã
It has been quite some time since we saw the movie and itâs already evening. Itâs a little early for dinner, but itâs not surprising if you are hungry.
ãIâm okay with that. Shiori?ã
Maika smiles and looks at me.
ãSorry. Iâm just⦠Iâm having a bit of a day.ã
ãYou have a promise to Sendai-san?ã
ãYeah, something like that?ã
Today, Sendai-san is out, as am I, and we havenât made any kind of appointment. But she said we would have dinner at home.
I leave them and get on the train.
I take out my phone in the swaying car.
It displays a picture of Sendai-san and I look at her ear.
A silver ornament that has been attached to the pierced hole since the day it was opened.
I will change these to earrings of my choice. In this way, the earrings become not just something to hold the promise of a birthday, but something to manage so that she is mine and always will be.
ââBut.
I feel like that would also mean that I am hers.
I have earrings in my ears that she chose me to wear.
If choosing and changing Sendai-sanâs earrings means that I own and control her, then itâs not surprising that the earrings on my ears have the same meaning.
It may not mean that, but I am curious.
I touch my ear and stroke the earring.
I donât belong to Sendai-san, but these earrings are very important to me. I have to have the earrings here because they serve the purpose of keeping my promise to her.
I put my phone away and continue to ride the train.
I get off the train at my usual station and walk toward home.
The nights are early in winter.
The wind is cold and I put my hands in my coat pockets.
My walking speed naturally increases.
I went up the stairs to the third floor and opened the front door to find Sendai-sanâs shoes. When I closed the door and went to the common space, I found Sendai-san looking in the refrigerator and said,ãIâm home.ã
ãWelcome home. Did you enjoy the movie?ã
Sendai-san approaches, closing the refrigerator.
ãJust so-so.ã
ãWhat about the earrings, Miyagi?ã
Sendai-san comes within touching distance and crawls his fingers over my piercing.
ãI still havenât chose it yet.ã
I kick her in the leg for asking me something she didnât have to ask.
ãMaybe you didnât pick the earrings because you wanted to mark me?ã
ãItâs not about that.ã
When Sendai-san asked me,ãWhat about my earrings?ãto which I replied,ãI didnât choose them,ãone mark would be added to Sendai-sanâs body and one to mine. We have done such things several times since the day we marked each otherâs bodies, though we did not make a promise.
I trace Sendai-sanâs neck with my fingertips.
Stretch the knit neck a little.
I bring my lips to the bottom of her collarbone, where it is hidden by her clothes, and suck hard on her skin. Sendai-sanâs hand goes around my back. She hugs me loosely, and I can feel her body heat not only from my lips but also from her body.
Suck long enough to leave a mark, then release my lips.
Check the red mark, then bite lightly.
When the arm around my back was undone and my body was separated, Sendai-san now put her lips on the same place where I had put mine.
Sensation of being strongly sucked.
The same shampoo smell coming from my hair.
They all feel good and make me want to touch Sendai-san more.
Our lips part and our tongues crawl.
I am ticklish, and my back is creeping, pushing Sendai-san away from me. But I squeezed her leg as her hand quickly reached up and traced my ear and stroked my neck.
ãYou donât have to be so vigilant.ã
Sendai-san complains.
ãI will.ã
There is no reason not to.
I still have in my mind what Sendai-san said,ãEventually.ãI donât remember agreeing to it, but she intends to touch my body when the time comes, and I am restless, having not yet heard when that time is.
ãDonât worry, one of these days will still be one of these days. If you have a preferred date, Iâll listen to your request.ã
ãYou donât have to ask.ã
If she wants to listen to me, she should listen to me, not request me. I have to ask Sendai-san about her Christmas plans, even though I donât feel like it. But before I can say I have something to say, Sendai-san starts talking.
ãMiyagi, help me prepare dinner.ã
ãWhat are you making?ã
ãThis one.ã
Sendai-san then opened the refrigerator.