I Didn’t Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!

Author: LynneSuzuran

Chapter 183 – It is Fate, Isn’t It?

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“Here we are, Luca.”
The words that came out of Queen Shaula’s mouth after she read the name of the tomb shattered my denial completely.
She was indeed coming for my tomb… but the question remained…
I wasn’t that close to her when I was still alive as Reinst… Heck, I didn’t even remember when we ever interacted at all…?
I proceeded to conceal my presence further as I kept myself hidden, listening to what they were going to say next.
Although eavesdropping someone might be a breach of privacy, but this matter had something to do with my past life, so I had the right to know at the very least… right?
“This is…,” Luca bent down and read the name written in the tomb. After he took a look at it, he straightened his body and turned to look at his mother with an inquiring look.
“Are you familiar with the name?” Shaula asked.
I unconsciously shook my head on Luca’s behalf. How would he know?!
But contrary to my expectation, Luca nodded instead.
“Reinst Carnatia Grabberton. Of course I’ve heard about her. She was the lady rumoured to be the top queen candidate when Father was still a crown prince,” Luca said as if it was a matter of fact.
Queen Shaula patted Luca’s head with a smile on her face, “You remember it well.”
I had expected Luca to stop the patting and said, ‘
but he didn’t do anything and seemed to be enjoying the patting albeit he seemed to be blushing shyly.
I clapped my cheeks silently.
My mind managed to find another thing to ponder about in an instant.
Since Reinst was formerly the top candidate for the queen—which meant King Titus’ former spouse candidate—, wouldn’t that mean she was somehow a rival or someone who’d make Queen Shaula’s eyes sore?
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I quickly shook my head, shook my wild imagination.
“Why are we here, Mother?” Luca voiced exactly my question.
“The reason I brought you here today is to let you know…,” Queen Shaula slowly explained. I waited in anticipation for Queen Shaula’s next words…
“That you wouldn’t be here if she hadn’t passed away.”
The queen’s next words almost caused me to fall in my surprise.
My head felt like it wanted to explode.
“Huh? Mother?” Luca was looking at the tomb just now, but he quickly turned in surprise to look at his mother.
“Alright, the shocking opening has been given. Now, where should I start?” Queen Shaula’s calm voice could be heard as she started narrating… something that didn’t seem to be connected with their coming to my past self’s grave and her ‘shocking opening’?
But I could only listen and try to guess what the queen was trying to tell the young prince.
“When I was young, I have always been a sickly child. I spent my childhood mostly in my bed or the hospital. I barely could attend any noble parties at all, and it worsened as I aged,” Queen Shaula said.
“I know that you were a sickly child, but I didn’t think it was that bad…,” Luca muttered as he asked in concern, “And you never really explained. What illness did you have? You are perfectly alright now, right?”
Queen Shaula smiled as she said, “Yeah, I’m alright now. Actually, until when I was a toddler, I was fine though I fell sick more often and easily than my siblings. But then, I was diagnosed with an idiopathic illness.”
Idiopathic…
An illness of unknown origin, huh?
“In short, it’s an abnormality where my magical cells became hostile and instead of doing what they should be doing—to manage the flow of one’s magical power—, they attacked the healthy cells in my body instead. Various treatments were applied to me, but nothing could fully heal it. Removing the malignant cells would just result in their regeneration and attacking them would just cause me agony.”
This…
Don’t tell me it’s a rare disease that was discovered not too long ago?
“Until finally, we discovered that the problem was in my magical cells regulators.”
…!!
“Each one of us has six magical cells regulators: in our head, torso, and four limbs. My torso magical cells regulators was the one that was failing. My symptoms fit with the rare unknown disease called as MaCReFa Syndrome,” Queen Shaula explained.
MaCReFa Syndrome…
Magical Cells… Regulators… Failure Syndrome?
Yep, the acronym could be the name of a character or even area, but its meaning was so terrifying. I heard that failure in magical cell regulators could lead to death.
“I see…,” Luca said.
“Ah, don’t worry, Luca. It’s not a hereditary disease. From what is known so far, it is a totally random disease that can’t be predicted at all… but it will show its onset during one’s early childhood,” Queen Shaula explained, worried that Luca might be concerned that he might have that disease in the future…
Well, I was sure that her words were credible.
After all, there was no way the royal family would approve King Titus and Queen Shaula’s marriage if Queen Shaula carried a hereditary disease, right?
Though the previous king and queen were in favor of love marriage, it didn’t mean they’d tolerate a hereditary disease carrier joining their bloodline, right??
After all, they wouldn’t want to see their descendants suffering, and their son suffering because of it, too…
“I didn’t plan on marrying and having children too, if I could have passed it to any of my descendants. I don’t want anyone to suffer what I had gone through,” Queen Shaula also said. Her voice contained some sadness inside…
But I understood what she was talking about and I commended her for thinking that way.
“Mother… I’m glad that you’re my mother,” Luca said as he grasped Queen Shaula’s hands.
“Thank you, Luca. Me, too. I’m glad to have you as my son,” she said as she gently planted a kiss on Luca’s forehead.
“Mother, how were you cured from your disease?” Luca then asked.
“I’m glad you asked,” Queen Shaula answered right away, as if she had been waiting for this question all along.
“You know, for this kind of syndrome, the only treatment would be transplant. But to transplant magical cells or its regulators… Well, it’s something trickier than normal organ transplant,” Queen Shaula sighed.
“Trickier… How?” Luca asked.
“First… you’ve got to have the same species. Since I’m a human, I’d need the donor from the same species or a mixed blood with a human dominancy. Second, our magical affinity must match. Third, to increase the probability of success even more, it’s suggested to have the donor and recipient to be of the same gender and around the same age range,” Queen Shaula elaborated.
“That’s a lot of requirements,” Luca said.
Queen Shaula nodded, “And the fact that this whole magical-cell-centered illnesses and magical cell transplant was a new thing that hadn’t existed for so long… There isn’t a lot of donor yet. The supply falls short of its demand and the compatibility issue is the number one concern.”
I nodded.
This was truly a concern…
But wait, this conversation seemed to be heading towards what I thought it would be…
“As my condition worsened, my whole family was getting desperate. Moreover, my magic affinity is a rare one, too, for a human… We were totally helpless then. I was told that I might not make it to my coming-of-age ceremony. You could say that I was on my dead bed already, resigning my fate to die before being able to do lots of things I wanted to,” Queen Shaula narrated again.
She then crouched down and caressed my past self’s tomb.
“One person’s misfortune might be another person’s fortune. I don’t feel good about this saying, but it was what happened to me. Just when we all thought it was impossible for me to go on, my family received good news that a donor was available. It didn’t take long before I was operated. Thankfully, it was a success and I managed to get a second chance in life. This time, I could do the things I wouldn’t normally be able to. To run around without pain, to use magic, to eat lots of food without caring whether they’d worsen my condition or not… I got to finally live.”
“Mother… Are you saying…?” Luca asked.
“Yes. Back then, the information about one’s donor was confidential. But I managed to get my hands on such a confidential information after I married to the royal family. No matter what, I had to know who gave me a chance to live because I’d like to offer my gratitude to whoever they were,” Queen Shaula said before continuing.
“When I first found out whose cell I received, I was shocked. Out of all people, I was saved by the former top queen candidate… Reinst-san.”
“The first thing I thought upon knowing that was how… it must be fate, don’t you think? Unexpectedly, I became the queen. The girl whose cell saved my life was the top queen candidate before her life was cut short. If she hadn’t passed away tragically at such a young age, I think she would’ve been the queen today instead of me. It made me wonder if I was able to become the queen because I got her cell?” Queen Shaula shook her head.
But I knew where she was coming from.
When I heard it just now, my mind was admiring this coincidence… no, could it be fate, just like what she said?
I thought it would be long before I could get the answer to my question about my cell donation’s fate.
Never have I thought, not even in my wildest dream, that I’d get the answer this fast!
And the answer that I received…
To be honest, it was so shocking, it all felt surreal…
I still couldn’t believe it…
Out of all people in this world, my past self—Reinst—‘s death actually saved Shaula, the one destined to be the queen?!
Holy moly… Is this a plot from a drama?!
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Chapter List

Prologue
Chapter 1 – The Grabberton Family
Chapter 2 – Fate
Chapter 3 – Reincarnate or Disappear!
Chapter 4 – Re:birth
Chapter 5 – Hello, Mother
Chapter 5.5 – Hello, Daughter
Chapter 6 – A New Home
Chapter 7 – The Whole Family, Complete Members
Chapter 8 – The Hartmann Family and Details about My New Home
Chapter 9 – Hartmann’s Special Arts
Chapter 10 – Third Birthday
Chapter 11 – Magic Elements
Chapter 12 – The Training
Chapter 12.5 – My Daughter’s First Training
Chapter 13 – Alt-nii’s Enrollment to School
Chapter 14 – Altaire’s Sixth Birthday (1)
Chapter 15 – Altaire’s Sixth Birthday (2)
Chapter 16 – Altaire is An Irregularity
Chapter 17 – Going to the Capicastle
Chapter 18 – My Magic
Chapter 19 – Denial
Chapter 20 – The Royal Family
Chapter 20.5 – The Adults’ Side
Chapter 21 – Lucius the Prince
Chapter 22 – Showdown with the Prince
Chapter 23 – My Education
Chapter 24 – The Mysterious Lyra
Chapter 25 – Fenix and My Magic Training
Chapter 26 – The Messy Independent Training
Chapter 27 – A Gift from God
Chapter 28 – Winter Holiday
Chapter 29 – The Plan
Chapter 30 – Journey to Chinosato City
Chapter 31 – Chinosato City
Chapter 32 – Trouble, Troubles Everywhere
Chapter 33 – Crisis During Vacation
Chapter 34 – [ ]
Chapter 35 – Mad Lunatic
Chapter 36 – Cleaning Up After The Crisis
Extra 1 – Reinst’s Coming-of-Age Ceremony
Chapter 37 – Celebrating Fifth Birthday
Chapter 38 – Luca’s Sixth Birthday
Chapter 38.5 – The Things That She Didn’t Know
Chapter 39 – My Sixth Birthday, and…
Chapter 40 – Nicole
Chapter 41 – “Mother” and “Little Brother”
Chapter 42 – Grabberton vs Fumitsuna
Chapter 43 – Second Magic Test
Chapter 44 – Preparing for Entrance Exams
Chapter 44.5 – Cyan’s “Blessing”
Chapter 45 – Entrance Exams and…
Chapter 46 – General Knowledge Test and Displaying My Swordsmanship
Chapter 47 – Last One in the Menu: Magic Exam!
Chapter 48 – Enrollment to Harmonia Academy
[April Fools Edition] Chapter 49
Chapter 49 – First Day of School!
Chapter 50 – Senior
Chapter 51 – An Unexpected Storm
Chapter 52 – The Rumored Girl
Chapter 53 – Siblings Team Battle, Against A Dragon!
Chapter 54 – More Surprising Things!
Chapter 55 – School Day 2 and Iris
Chapter 56 – School Day 3 is Very Chaotic!
Chapter 57 – A Day of Sword and Magic
Chapter 58 – Day 3’s Night and Day 4’s Activities
Chapter 59 – Day 5, Another Interesting Day
Chapter 60 – Passing Days
Chapter 61 – Sleepover Time~!
Chapter 62 – Icarus
Chapter 63 – Firis
Chapter 64 – Cyan
Chapter 64.5 – The Day We Met ~Titus’ Side~
Chapter 65 – Story of the Past
Chapter 66 – Magic Test at School
Chapter 67 – Turning Seven
Chapter 68 – Eggie’s Fate
Chapter 69 – Peaceful Days… No?
Chapter 70 – Overture
Chapter 71 – An Invitation
Chapter 72 – My [Nephew]’s Sixth Birthday
Chapter 73 – Turning Eight
Chapter 74 – Still My Eighth Birthday Party
Chapter 75 – Miss You, Big Sis!
Chapter 76 – Playing Tag
Chapter 77 – The Treasury: Revisited
Chapter 78 – Interlude
Chapter 79 – Here Comes… Ein!
Chapter 80 – Lyra vs Altaire –and Co.
Chapter 81 – Surprise and Surprise!
Chapter 82 – On A Certain Winter
Chapter 83 – An Addition to the Family
Chapter 84 – Freyr and Freyja
Chapter 85 – Bonding with the Twins~!
Chapter 86 – The Twins’ Confusion
Chapter 87 – Day 5 Month 5: 5th Birthday
Chapter 88 – The Maozi Jewel
Chapter 89 – Introduction
Chapter 90 – Seal
Chapter 91 – Debut Party
Chapter 92 – Rivals
Chapter 93 – Presents
Chapter 94 – The Magical Twins
Chapter 95 – The Princess’ Debut Party
Chapter 96 – The Hartmann Family’s Big Events
Chapter 97 – On A Certain Snowy Day
Chapter 98 – Missing
Chapter 99 – Let’s Go Home
Chapter 100 – Werebeasts
Chapter 101 – Collaboration
Chapter 102 – New Power
Chapter 103 – Confession
Chapter 104 – The Trio Troublemakers
Chapter 105 – Is He Serious?
Chapter 106 – Prepare For Trouble
Chapter 107 – Against Dmitria and Valerie
Chapter 108 – This is What I Call “Victory”
Chapter 109 – The Miracle Twins
Chapter 110 – Getting Along with the Trio Troublemakers
Chapter 111 – Erneste
Chapter 112 – Harmonia Academy’s Quinquennial Event
April Fools – Disastrous Festival
Chapter 113 – One Night, Different Experiences
Chapter 114 – Will You Come?
Chapter 115 – [Little Brother]’S 22nd Birthday
Chapter 116 – Harmonia Academy’s Quinquennial Festival: Day 1
Chapter 117 – Hansel And Gretel: Festival Edition
Chapter 118 – Prophecy
[Special] World Explanation
Chapter 119 – Day 3: Siblings Battle
Chapter 120 – Insecurities
Chapter 121 – Unpleasant Feelings
Chapter 122 – In Danger
Chapter 123 – [You] and [Me]
Chapter 124 – Finally Awake
Chapter 125 – Home Visit
Chapter 126 – Reconcile
Chapter 127 – Not Alone
Chapter 128 – Sharing Burdens
Chapter 129 – Training Begins
Chapter 130 – Untangle One Knot
Chapter 131 – Forgetting Something Important
Chapter 132 – Dark Magic Training
Chapter 133 – Turning 11!
Chapter 134 – Can Invite?
Discussion
Chapter 135 – Let’s Go and Fetch!
Chapter 136 – Briar-Rose
Chapter 137 – Ranch Life, Fun Life~
Chapter 138 – Bad Luck…?
Chapter 139 – Encounter: [ ]
Chapter 140 – Awake
Chapter 141 – Clyde and Nicole
Chapter 142 – Grabbing A Sword Again
Chapter 143 – Meteor Shower
Chapter 144 – Siblings
Chapter 145 – Fourteenth Birthday Celebration
Chapter 146 – Shaula and Titus
Chapter 147 – The Future
Chapter 148 – Differences
Chapter 149 – The Hartmann Family
Chapter 150 – How Everyone’s Doing
Chapter 151 – Loera
Chapter 152 – Please Don’t Think I’m Mental Or What
Chapter 153 – Preparation to Go Back
Chapter 154 – To Silent Forest
Chapter 155 – Overcoming A Trial
Chapter 156 – I Have A Familiar!
Chapter 157 – Confiding About Past Life
Chapter 158 – Where Do Familiars Stay?
Chapter 159 – First Step To The Plan!
Chapter 160 – Staying In The Loera Residence
Chapter 161 – Best Friend
Chapter 162 – Nicole And Reinst
Chapter 163 – Second Person
Chapter 164 – My One and Only…
Chapter 165 – Brother and Sister
Chapter 165.5 – Brother And Sister ~Sister’s Side~
Chapter 166 – Proof
Chapter 167 – Do You Believe In Ghosts?
Chapter 168 – A Chance
Chapter 169 – Attachment
Chapter 170 – I Am The Older Sister
Chapter 171 – Our Own Path
Chapter 172 – Mother or Father?
Chapter 173 – Father
Chapter 174 – Dad
Chapter 175 – The Center of My World
Chapter 176 – Family
Chapter 177 – Unanswered Questions
Chapter 178 – Older Brother
Chapter 179 – Wedding Ceremony
Chapter 180 – Should I be Worried?
Chapter 181 – After That…
Chapter 182 – Visiting the Grave
Chapter 183 – It is Fate, Isn’t It?
Chapter 184 – Returning Home
Chapter 185 – Her Smile
Chapter 186 – Just Lyra
Chapter 187 – Alt-nii’s Request
Chapter 188 – You See…
Chapter 188.5 – Parents
Chapter 189 – Coming-of-Age Ceremony
Chapter 190 – Friendships
Chapter 191 – Constant
Chapter 192 – Rupert’s Big Day?!
Chapter 193 – Growing Conflict
Chapter 194 – Our Meeting?
Chapter 195 – Becoming A Third Wheel
Chapter 196 – Celeste’s Request
Chapter 197 – Lies
Chapter 198 – Father Daughter Reunion
Chapter 199 – Oriel
Chapter 200 – Naraka’s War God
Chapter 201 – Battle in the Strange Place
Chapter 202 – Working Together
Chapter 203 – Stranded in the Unknown
Chapter 204 – Their Alliance
Chapter 205 – Adjusting
Chapter 206 – Everyone’s Hope
Chapter 207 – Baby
Chapter 208 – Sen
Chapter 209 – Have We Returned?
Chapter 210 – Current Situation
Chapter 211 – Changes in Cielle Kingdom
Chapter 212 – Why Things Are Turning to the Present
Chapter 213 – Delegation to Cielle
Chapter 214 – Cielle Kingdom’s Crown Princess
Chapter 215 – Hello, My Old Friend
Chapter 216 – Lyra’s Internal Struggle
Chapter 217 – Infiltration Plan
Chapter 218 – Preparing for the Infiltration Mission
[Announcement] Light Novel Publication!
Chapter 219 – Mission: Start
Chapter 220 – Infiltrating Cielle Kingdom’s Capital City
Chapter 221 – Infiltrating the Royal Castle of Cielle
Chapter 222 – Aiming to be the Top Maids?!
Chapter 223 – The Tower of Exile
Chapter 224 – The Person Being Held Captive…
Chapter 225 – Gullible or…?
Chapter 226 – Eneida
Chapter 227 – The Opportunist
Chapter 228 – Embarking towards Vittae Village
Chapter 229 – Trust
Chapter 230 – Aquafly
Chapter 231 – The Portal
Chapter 232 – The Vittae Village
Chapter 233 – All Alone in This World
Chapter 234 – A Monster
Chapter 235 – Investigating the Vittae Temple
Chapter 236 – The Temple’s Hidden Area
Chapter 237 – Our Way Out… Or Not?
Chapter 238 – Boss Battle?!
Chapter 239 – Escapade
Chapter 240 – Saving the Day After Ruining It
Chapter 241 – When Disguised People Meet One Another…
Chapter 242 – Dilemma
Chapter 243 – Coincidences
Chapter 244 – The Elven Divine Doctor
Chapter 245 – The Truth
Chapter 246 – One Unwavering Truth
Chapter 247 – To the Dragon’s Continent!
Chapter 248 – Pyrpgrnt Kingdom
Chapter 249 – The Dragon Race
Chapter 250 – The Confusion of the Prince’s Aide
Chapter 251 – Eneida’s Power
Chapter 252 – In the Cradle of Her Mind
Chapter 253 – The Life of A Saintess
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