I Didn’t Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!
Author: LynneSuzuran
Chapter 82 â On A Certain Winter
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After I was reincarnated into the Hartmann family, I often heard such a story as a bedtime story. It was so dreamy and lovelyâthe legend of the Hartmann clan. In my opinion, it was a much better story than the legend of the Grabbertonâs origin.
The legend of the Grabbertonâs origin portrayed a heroic story where the founder of the clan was the sole survivor of the tragedy that destroyed his hometown. Vowing that he would exact revenge on his family members and friends, he departed on a journey, conquering many ferocious beasts and absorbing their power, and eventuallyâthe fateful encounter with the hero, the founder of Riviera country.
While the tale really sounded all glorious and empowering, I preferred stories that emphasized more on âspecial bondsâ. Therefore, the Hartmannâs tale won over my heart in an instant.
At that time, when I first heard of the story, a question popped in my mind.
And then, my question was answered in a story about the founder of Riviera and his connection with the ones who would begin the Hartmann clan.
***
I didnât know what caused me to dream that tale again.
It had been long since I last heard that as my bedtime stories.
Yet, I still dreamed of it again, and the twinsâ figures remained in my mindâat least, according to my imagination and the available portraits of them.
As I woke up in my bed, trying to figure out the meaning of my dream (although Iâm not always this superstitious), I started to think that I might know what triggered me to dream of it.
I was reminded of how Dad kinda made suggestive remarksâor hints that I might become a real older sister in the future.
As I havenât heard anything from Dad and Mom... yet, let alone knowing what gender would my little sibling be... yup, thus I imagined both gendersâin the form of the Hartmann twins.
I never really noticed that I wanted to have my own childrenâI meant, my own younger sibling(s) that much!
Wow, this dream really revealed my deepest desire!
I couldnât wait to hear a good news from Dad and Mom... soon, I believe!!
Soon...
Soon...?
Or not.
Even after I waited and waited, there didnât seem to be any signs.
I was expecting Dad or Mom to say that my new sibling was on the way, but...
Dad, instead of spending more time at home to nurture his relationship with Mom, for the sake of giving me and Alt-nii the new sibling we hoped for...
Instead... he seemed to get busier and spent more time going on âwork tripâ.
*Sigh*
Did Dad get ton of new work when it was time for him to get pumped to give me a younger sibling?
Thatâs really a pity, but well...
I guess... my new sibling will come way later...
No matter, though!
I can wait!!
In my previous life, I became an older sister when I was 9.
Iâm now... 8 years old... Oh well, Dad and Mom are so in love with each other and they are still young, so Iâm sure I will be an older sister again when Iâm 9... right? Or having a new sibling when Iâm 10 is also fine.
I can pamper my younger sibling a lot and help Mom and Dad take care of them, right?
Anyway, I decided to forget about that, as I havenât really heard more from Dad or Mom after that one time when Dad mysteriously asked me my opinion on getting new sibling.
...Not having my own younger sibling is also fine, actually. I have Leticia and Ein as my younger siblings figure.
What bothered me now was how Dad seemed to be going out more frequently and each time took longer than usual.
The other day, when I asked him while pouting...
Dad bitterly smiled, patted my head and said ambiguous thing such as...
â
Okay, I donât care anymore about the sibling thing. I just want him to finish his work faster and spend more time at home!
Pamper me more, Dad! Wait, no!
Winter arrived once more and looking at the sceneries outside painted in white, I began to think of Dad more.
When he last departed from this house, he said, âDonât worry, I will be finished with my current mission soon. I might clear this mission by the time I return home this time, okay?â
Still, he didnât say when was the exact time.
The snow started to pile up once more, and it was raining snow today as well.
Back then, I wanted to spend more time alone, enjoying winter in the warm bed while reading some books and sipping the hot chocolate Chloe made... instead of being forced to play snow outside with Dad, especially.
But now, I missed those days instead.
...Come to think of it. The dream I had this morning just made me remember something.
It was said that the Hartmann tribe was annihilated on a snowy day like this, too.
I wonder what the Hartmann twins must have felt upon seeing the red color of blood tainting the pure white snow on their homeland?
It seemed that my mind wandered off too far, but...
Yeah, the Hartmann twins were the only case of two people building an entire clan or ducal house. The other ducal houses only started with one person each. Logic stated that the Hartmann clan should be the largest clan.
So... how could we become the smallest clan instead?
Hmm... Ah right.
Just as how the Hartmann tribe was annihilated by the parties who felt like they might pose a threat, I heard that there was a certain point in the past where history repeated itself.
...All the more I had to be careful.
On my fourth winter holiday as Lyra, my family was also attacked and targeted. Dangers like that might show up again in the future, no matter what the reason might be, so I ought to train hard and be careful.
...Dad, please be careful and return safely soon. I want to train more with you!!
Just as I was thinking of Dad and wondering on when he might return home, saying that he was finally finished with his work or mission for real...
Suddenly, I saw a familiar figure from the window, where I was peeking into the all-white scenery outside. The figure was quite far away, but I could tell who it was.
Before I could even think, my body moved on its own to go down the stairs, to open the door and welcome my beloved father.
The moment I opened the doorâekh, it wasnât just raining snow, it was almost a snow storm!! The wind was so strongâeven if I said the cold never bothered me anymore now that I possessed [Ice] magic... I was still bothered by this weather, okay?!
I decided to close the door and apply more mana to the magic heater in the room.
So I focused on keeping myself warm as wellâwith my back facing the front door.
I could always turn around when Dad opened the door. He would surely be delighted to see me first thing first!!
My prediction was right.
Before long, I could sense the door being opened.
Then, what followed after that...
âIâm home~!â
...was Dadâs familiar voice.
I quickly turned around, stood up, and ran towards my father.
âDad, welcome home!â
At that time, I noticed something was off.
No, it wasnât Dadâs slightly messy appearance. It was almost a snow storm outside, so this was to be expected.
But what was off was...
The appearance of unfamiliar figures hiding behind Dad.
Two pair of eyes peeked from Dadâs left and right side.
The two childrenâs hair color was pale white, just like the snow outside.
Their stature... was short.
I guess they might be as old as Leticia...
Wait, that wasnât the most important part here!
The-the-the-the-the⦠the two pair of eyesâ¦!! There were different colors on each pair of eyes.
It was definitely the Hartmann familyâs peculiarity, right?
Dad... I was certainly looking forward to new addition of the family, to new siblings...
BUT I CERTAINLY DIDNâT MEAN ILLEGITIMATE CHILDREN!!!
Perhaps noticing how I was standing frozen in front of him as my eyes blankly stared at the pair of children he brought along with him, Dad finally moved his mouth.
But that wasnât the sort of explanation I wanted to hear.
âLyra, say hello to our new family members!â
...Yes, that was the last thing I wanted to hear!!!!!!
I really am expecting comments in this chapter! XD
Thanks for reading and I hope you're enjoying this series~
And allow this little bit of advertising: Please support this story (and the other projects--for those who don't know: I also translate in my spare time) by becoming a patron if you can~ It will help me allocate more time to work on the projects~! Regardless, I'd be happy as long as you're enjoying my story~
After I was reincarnated into the Hartmann family, I often heard such a story as a bedtime story. It was so dreamy and lovelyâthe legend of the Hartmann clan. In my opinion, it was a much better story than the legend of the Grabbertonâs origin.
The legend of the Grabbertonâs origin portrayed a heroic story where the founder of the clan was the sole survivor of the tragedy that destroyed his hometown. Vowing that he would exact revenge on his family members and friends, he departed on a journey, conquering many ferocious beasts and absorbing their power, and eventuallyâthe fateful encounter with the hero, the founder of Riviera country.
While the tale really sounded all glorious and empowering, I preferred stories that emphasized more on âspecial bondsâ. Therefore, the Hartmannâs tale won over my heart in an instant.
At that time, when I first heard of the story, a question popped in my mind.
And then, my question was answered in a story about the founder of Riviera and his connection with the ones who would begin the Hartmann clan.
***
I didnât know what caused me to dream that tale again.
It had been long since I last heard that as my bedtime stories.
Yet, I still dreamed of it again, and the twinsâ figures remained in my mindâat least, according to my imagination and the available portraits of them.
As I woke up in my bed, trying to figure out the meaning of my dream (although Iâm not always this superstitious), I started to think that I might know what triggered me to dream of it.
I was reminded of how Dad kinda made suggestive remarksâor hints that I might become a real older sister in the future.
As I havenât heard anything from Dad and Mom... yet, let alone knowing what gender would my little sibling be... yup, thus I imagined both gendersâin the form of the Hartmann twins.
I never really noticed that I wanted to have my own childrenâI meant, my own younger sibling(s) that much!
Wow, this dream really revealed my deepest desire!
I couldnât wait to hear a good news from Dad and Mom... soon, I believe!!
Soon...
Soon...?
Or not.
Even after I waited and waited, there didnât seem to be any signs.
I was expecting Dad or Mom to say that my new sibling was on the way, but...
Dad, instead of spending more time at home to nurture his relationship with Mom, for the sake of giving me and Alt-nii the new sibling we hoped for...
Instead... he seemed to get busier and spent more time going on âwork tripâ.
*Sigh*
Did Dad get ton of new work when it was time for him to get pumped to give me a younger sibling?
Thatâs really a pity, but well...
I guess... my new sibling will come way later...
No matter, though!
I can wait!!
In my previous life, I became an older sister when I was 9.
Iâm now... 8 years old... Oh well, Dad and Mom are so in love with each other and they are still young, so Iâm sure I will be an older sister again when Iâm 9... right? Or having a new sibling when Iâm 10 is also fine.
I can pamper my younger sibling a lot and help Mom and Dad take care of them, right?
Anyway, I decided to forget about that, as I havenât really heard more from Dad or Mom after that one time when Dad mysteriously asked me my opinion on getting new sibling.
...Not having my own younger sibling is also fine, actually. I have Leticia and Ein as my younger siblings figure.
What bothered me now was how Dad seemed to be going out more frequently and each time took longer than usual.
The other day, when I asked him while pouting...
Dad bitterly smiled, patted my head and said ambiguous thing such as...
â
Okay, I donât care anymore about the sibling thing. I just want him to finish his work faster and spend more time at home!
Pamper me more, Dad! Wait, no!
Winter arrived once more and looking at the sceneries outside painted in white, I began to think of Dad more.
When he last departed from this house, he said, âDonât worry, I will be finished with my current mission soon. I might clear this mission by the time I return home this time, okay?â
Still, he didnât say when was the exact time.
The snow started to pile up once more, and it was raining snow today as well.
Back then, I wanted to spend more time alone, enjoying winter in the warm bed while reading some books and sipping the hot chocolate Chloe made... instead of being forced to play snow outside with Dad, especially.
But now, I missed those days instead.
...Come to think of it. The dream I had this morning just made me remember something.
It was said that the Hartmann tribe was annihilated on a snowy day like this, too.
I wonder what the Hartmann twins must have felt upon seeing the red color of blood tainting the pure white snow on their homeland?
It seemed that my mind wandered off too far, but...
Yeah, the Hartmann twins were the only case of two people building an entire clan or ducal house. The other ducal houses only started with one person each. Logic stated that the Hartmann clan should be the largest clan.
So... how could we become the smallest clan instead?
Hmm... Ah right.
Just as how the Hartmann tribe was annihilated by the parties who felt like they might pose a threat, I heard that there was a certain point in the past where history repeated itself.
...All the more I had to be careful.
On my fourth winter holiday as Lyra, my family was also attacked and targeted. Dangers like that might show up again in the future, no matter what the reason might be, so I ought to train hard and be careful.
...Dad, please be careful and return safely soon. I want to train more with you!!
Just as I was thinking of Dad and wondering on when he might return home, saying that he was finally finished with his work or mission for real...
Suddenly, I saw a familiar figure from the window, where I was peeking into the all-white scenery outside. The figure was quite far away, but I could tell who it was.
Before I could even think, my body moved on its own to go down the stairs, to open the door and welcome my beloved father.
The moment I opened the doorâekh, it wasnât just raining snow, it was almost a snow storm!! The wind was so strongâeven if I said the cold never bothered me anymore now that I possessed [Ice] magic... I was still bothered by this weather, okay?!
I decided to close the door and apply more mana to the magic heater in the room.
So I focused on keeping myself warm as wellâwith my back facing the front door.
I could always turn around when Dad opened the door. He would surely be delighted to see me first thing first!!
My prediction was right.
Before long, I could sense the door being opened.
Then, what followed after that...
âIâm home~!â
...was Dadâs familiar voice.
I quickly turned around, stood up, and ran towards my father.
âDad, welcome home!â
At that time, I noticed something was off.
No, it wasnât Dadâs slightly messy appearance. It was almost a snow storm outside, so this was to be expected.
But what was off was...
The appearance of unfamiliar figures hiding behind Dad.
Two pair of eyes peeked from Dadâs left and right side.
The two childrenâs hair color was pale white, just like the snow outside.
Their stature... was short.
I guess they might be as old as Leticia...
Wait, that wasnât the most important part here!
The-the-the-the-the⦠the two pair of eyesâ¦!! There were different colors on each pair of eyes.
It was definitely the Hartmann familyâs peculiarity, right?
Dad... I was certainly looking forward to new addition of the family, to new siblings...
BUT I CERTAINLY DIDNâT MEAN ILLEGITIMATE CHILDREN!!!
Perhaps noticing how I was standing frozen in front of him as my eyes blankly stared at the pair of children he brought along with him, Dad finally moved his mouth.
But that wasnât the sort of explanation I wanted to hear.
âLyra, say hello to our new family members!â
...Yes, that was the last thing I wanted to hear!!!!!!
I really am expecting comments in this chapter! XD
Thanks for reading and I hope you're enjoying this series~
And allow this little bit of advertising: Please support this story (and the other projects--for those who don't know: I also translate in my spare time) by becoming a patron if you can~ It will help me allocate more time to work on the projects~! Regardless, I'd be happy as long as you're enjoying my story~