Voices in the Band: A Doctor, Her Patients, and How the Outlook on AIDS Care Changed from Doomed to Hopeful

266 Pages·2015·1.2 MB·English

by  Susan C Ball

Voices in the Band
a volume in the series
THE CULTURE AND POLITICS OF HEALTH CARE WORK
Edited by Suzanne Gordon and Sioban Nelson
A list of titles in this series is available at www.cornellpress.cornell.edu
Voices in the Band
A Doctor, Her Patients, and How
the Outlook on AIDS Care Changed
from Doomed to Hopeful
Susan C. Ball
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Ball, Susan C., 1957– author.
Voices in the band : a doctor, her patients, and how the outlook on
AIDS care changed from doomed to hopeful / Susan C. Ball.
pages cm — (The culture and politics of health care work)
Includes bibliographical references and index.
ISBN 978-0-8014-5362-5 (cloth : alk. paper)
1. AIDS (Disease)—New York (State)—New York—History.
2. AIDS (Disease)—Patients—New York (State)—New York. I. Title.
II. Series: Culture and politics of health care work.
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Contents
Acknowledgments ix
Author’s Note xi
Introduction 1
1. 1992: Beginning 4
2. 1992: So Much to Learn 18
3. 1992: No Easy Answers and Little to Offer 33
4. 1994: Too Many Drugs, No Medication 47
5. 1994: Being Mindful of the Subtext 61
6. 1994: Weekend on Call 75
7. 1994: Christmas 88
8. 1995: Another Support Group 100
9. 1995: Mothers and Children 113
10. 1995: Decisions and Revisions 125
11. 1995: Colleagues and Families 138
12. 1995: So Many Stories and Some New Faces 151
viii CONTENTS
13. 1996: Some Hope in the Despair 166
14. 1996: Hit Early, Hit Hard 181
15. 1997: Amazing Changes 195
16. 1999: Despite Our Best Intentions 208
17. 1999: Coping with a Different Paradigm 221
18. 2000: Going Home 234
Epilogue 248
Acknowledgments
I could say that I began writing this book when I started my job at the Center
for Special Studies—or maybe even before that, when I was writing about
some of the patients I cared for while I was a resident or a medical student.
I began consciously writing a book about ten years ago with the encourage-
ment of my boss, Jon Jacobs. I wrote on and off, plugging away at times and
leaving it in a drawer at others. Ultimately it was my partner, Shari, who, on
seeing the advertisement for the Narrative Medicine Program at Columbia
University in the New Yorker magazine, excitedly showed it to me and said,
“You should do this, Suze; then you can finish your book.” And she was right.
I had great teachers at the Narrative Medicine Program. Maura Siegel,
Craig Irvine, Sayantani Das Gupta, Nellie Herman, Marsha Hurst, and Pat
Stanley offered inspiration in this important field, and I thank them all. Rita
Charon shepherded the program into being, and her support for the book
has been enthusiastic and unflagging. I am indebted to her as an advisor, a
colleague, and a friend. My superb writing teacher, Lynne Sharon Schwartz,
spent countless hours reading and rereading, coaxing stronger sentences and
intelligible phrasing from my passive-voice-prone pen. I am so grateful for
her patient, meticulous help.
I hope it is clear in the story how much I admire Jon Jacobs. Jon has stood
by me as a friend and mentor for more than twenty years. From the very start
he has kept our focus on one essential ideal: to do what is best for the patient.